Golly, I never realized, until now, how cursory and depthless I (me, moi) am until I committed to writing a book and in some small effort, can’t make sense for the lives of hand full of characters I created.
I never realized how difficult it is to admit that my colloquial writing has no economy. The effort to converse in the way I speak is changeable and I can speak in a tone less vulgar.
I never realized how hard it is to write a book. I never realized how picayune I have become over research and exactness and order.
But I will. I am persistent. I am unconventional. I am malleable.
The discomfort in the pit of my stomach is nagging and I will teach it nagging doesn’t work.
I will change. The book will change. The book will change me.
Ron, I think all creative enterprise needs the push me/pull you pit feelings in the stomach to propel the process which also involves times of elation and flow. The contrast between the two is the energy that keeps persistence alive.
Kathryn
That’s the funniest list of New Year’s Resolutions I’ve seen yet.
Although I must say, commenting here took a longer than simply doing a word verification.
(I hope I have passed the comment application process!)
ooohhhh…it is so much easier leaving a comment the second time….
Thanks for the comment, Ron. I think that has got to be one of the worst things ever – losing a job, and maybe even worse, the uncertainty of not knowing if you’re REALLY going to lose a job.
I always think of Jacob wrestling with God all night, and then receving the name Israel (which, if I’m remembering right, literally means, wrestled with God). I’ve done more than my fair share of God wrestling this year myself.
And I’m not sure that I can say that everything happens for a reason in the sense of cause and effect (i.e., This bad thing happened so this good thing could happen) I tend more towards trusting that God will somehow use our bad circumstances for good. But I still don’t like the bad!
Anyhow, I hope things somehow work out, and whatever happens with your job, I’ll bet God does have something cool around the corner for you….
Persevere, Sir. Persist and persevere. You will prevail in the end. And your book will be great. So Sayeth Moi.
heh heh heh, your new years resolution was to use picayune in a sentence wasn’t it?
That’s why I’ve never started to write a book. I don’t have your Perseverance, Persistence or Picayunity.
You’re far stronger than I. I would have given up and been on the couch with wine long before now. Stick with it. I’ll be wanting to read it.
Unless it’s a statistics book. Or a Western. I don’t read those.
Geesh, can’t be too colloquial… you used, what, vulgar, cursory, depthless, changeable, persistent, unconventional, malleable, and picayune in ONE post.
Bossy is exhausted from running back and forth to her dictionary.